Month: March 2022

3 things at the end of a very long, hard week.

March 25, 2022

Today I found some treasures in a box that has not been opened in a long time. Boxes full of memories really can help to remind you who you are and who you’ve always been no matter what kind of crazy enters your life. It was very comforting and for that I am grateful; I asked my juniors to draw and color a scene from their book club book. They all loved it and some turned out some amazing images. We laughed, they relaxed and talk about their books, and we spoke about the mental health benefits of coloring or creating and I am grateful we had this time together; I am grateful for my safe arrival in Augusta to babysit this weekend and extra grateful that my soon to be 21 year old son came to play, too. #choosejoy #gratitude #3things #getyourowndamninsuramce

Friday – oh Friday

Today’s 3 things: I am grateful it is Friday and am still alive – what a week; I am trying so hard to be grateful for the patience Hod is trying to teach me…I learned yesterday my final order will be at least another 2-3 weeks. He’s trying to show me how to let go and let Him and I am really, really, really trying. seriously; I am grateful for my brain. I often rely on my intellect when I should rely on my spirituality but I am still grateful for brain that God gave me!

#choosejoy #3things #gratitude #neverendingdivorce #onedayatatime

Tuesday, March 15 – The Ides of March….3things

I have been really trying to focus on my mental health and healthy thoughts these past few weeks. It has been a real challenge. Hence – no daily posts.

I went to court on Feb 3rd and 4th after trying to negotiate my divorce for 2 and a half years with a person who lives in his own reality. That’s all I’ll say about him now – you’ll have to buy the book. I did not know the judge would take so long to make the final order…we are still waiting. Sooooo long.

“Beware the Ides of March” from Julius Caesar is in my head today. For those who don’t know – it’s when he is betrayed and stabbed to death. No, I don’t expect to be stabbed today – but I have already been betrayed, so there’s that.

It’s just that waiting for weeks upon weeks for a simple email to finally show up to officially end my 30 year relationship with a man I loved who stopped speaking to me even before I ever chose to leave for reasons I will never know or understand….well, it’s torturous. I don’t wish it on anyone. I truly wish the replay button in my head would malfunction.

One day at a time, one moment at a time – that’s how we get through.

Still, in my confusion and angst today I try to find my 3 things: I am grateful for all that I have and for God’s daily blessings. He is providing me with all that I need to heal – especially faith; I am grateful for my children and grand children – family and love – it’s why we are on this earth. I am sorry my husband could not see that; I am grateful that I am beginning to see my true potential. As I mentioned yesterday – it’s amazing what you can accomplish when you don’t have someone always telling you that you can’t, making you feel less than so he can feel more than. Just amazing.

I hope you all have a wonderful day and find joy and love with and in those around you. Support the ones you love and give lots of hugs….don’t ever be the first one to let go – fill their love bucket! They will let go once it’s filled. ❤️

#choosejoy #fightforit #3things #gratitude

Sunday, Sunday – 3 things

March 6, 2022. Tomorrow would be my daddy’s birthday. Well, I guess it still is, but when your lives one isn’t here it just seems like it “used to be” their birthday. Anyway – I am grateful for the time I had with him and that he could type. Typing sent him to the Pentagon and NOT to Vietnam. He met my mom at the Pentagon – cool; I am grateful for the weekend I just had with my grands but even more grateful that we aren’t all huddled underground somewhere wondering if the rest of family was alive or dead, wondering if I’ll ever see my home again. I pray for the people of Ukraine and all they have lost and all that lies ahead of them; I am grateful I am free and I’m sorry, I don’t care how much my gas costs. I have a car, I have a job, I have a healthy family and a home that will not be bombed tonight. I am warm and safe. Yes, the cost of gas will make it harder on the budget, and so does the rising cost of food. But I have choices – and for that I am extraordinarily grateful. #choosejoy #3things #gratitude