It’s one of those nights that finds me awake for no reason at 1am unable to go back to sleep. The mind can get dark during these late night restless hours. I decided to fight off my thought demons with my three things of gratitude for this day, at this time.
One: I am grateful for a friend’s successful surgery and another friend’s successful delivery. Modern medicine isn’t perfect, but it’s pretty damn good.
Two: I am grateful for my career as a teacher and that I was put on this path to help others. It can be incredibly difficult but it has given me direction and connection; purpose and joy.
Three: the last few days I experienced the anniversary of my father’s passing and the anniversary of my marriage. Although I don’t have my father or my marriage anymore, and I grieve them eternally – I am so grateful for all that life has given me and try really hard to focus on what I have and not what or who has been taken away from me. I don’t always win that battle. Anyone who has suffered loss knows that grief is not linear. I lost mom in 1993 and still have bad days now and again grieving her. But I am grateful, too, that I feel my feels so I can heal – even if they are lifelong wounds. These feelings tell me I am alive and I am human. I am grateful.
#3things #choosejoy #gratitude
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